Sunday, June 8, 2008

I Can be MEAN

I had a really good idea for a blog entry last night. I started to compose a few sentences as I drifted off to sleep. I wonder what it was. That idea I mean.

Today, Lyra and I had a mother/daughter run it. It has been a long time since she's got me so angry that I've lost it. There were moments during her tantrum where I was enjoying the fact that she was so livid - and that if I wanted to, I could make her even more so. Ooooh, I can be MEAN.

It's amazing how the energy of two angry people can spiral into a whirlwind of destruction (both literally & figuratively). Luckily for us, we both have enough of a rein on our emotions that even though we got quite worked up, we still kept the pure raw anger at bay.

After a few minutes, I came to my senses and had the ability to calm down, apologize, and give her a cuddle. We both were able to see that we'd gone over the edge - and it wasn't pretty. After the tears had dried, I saw that she was welling up again and reached out for another snuggle. What's wrong, I asked. "I'm just having emotions," she said. I can relate.

It's been some pretty stressful days for Lyra the past week. I was out of town all week, which she doesn't like. Then Thursday was the last day of school and she had to say goodbye to friends and teachers. Then today she went to a new summer camp with new friends and teachers. So, a lot for one kid to process. It's been coming out in some emotional eruptions.

Guess you're never really done with tantrums. Even in your 40s.

2 comments:

Mamacita said...

Yeah, I can throw a wicked tantrum now and again!

susan said...

One of my friends told me "you won't believe how angry you can get with your child," and she was soooooo right. It's been a turbulent spring around here, for sure.